Category: This Crazy Occupation

The title says it all: the first time we see each other is probably going to be the worst time between us. That doesn’t mean it’s bad. It just means we’re both nervous. I’ve always said that if you find someone you like, stick with them. Seeing a new escort can be nerve-racking. You’re nervous because you don’t know what to expect. I’m nervous because I don’t know you yet, either. I don’t know your …

I had to get a new phone number because Google Voice deleted mine!  It’s 314-384-4388

5/21/26 You Have Needs And what better way to get those needs taken care of than by seeing an escort who is mature, patient, fun, and silly all at the same time? Much better than having an affair. No complicated emotions involved except maybe friendship. No contacting you after you leave because why would I? Just something to look forward to. Someone to look forward to. The thing about the title is that if you …

4/3/26  Just a Hole Sometimes, with certain clients, it feels like I’m just a hole. And I have to tell you—I hate that feeling. I understand that there will always be a percentage of men who approach seeing an escort as nothing more than getting off. In their minds, it’s purely transactional. Honestly, if that’s all they want, they could use a glory hole and accomplish the same thing. But that feels…empty. Detached. And yes, …

Don’t you think that as much as you feel guilty about coming to see me, your wife probably carries her own kind of guilt too? She knows you still have needs. She’s not naive. She may not know how those needs are being met—or maybe she tells herself you’re just taking care of things on your own—but she knows they’re still there. And I have to believe that for many of these women, especially those …

To the gentlemen discussing me here, I don’t usually respond to forum posts, but since my name has come up I thought I would say a few words directly. First, thank you to those who have seen me and shared their experiences. Anyone who has met me knows that what you see is exactly what you get. I show up on time, I look like my photos, and I do my best to make the …

I don’t usually blog about my encounters. Mostly because there isn’t that much to say beyond, “It was nice.” But today? That would not be true. I met with an Aussie man who made me giggle with delight and scream with fear — the good kind. You see, he had me in every position imaginable, and at one point I swear he twirled me in the air. It was pure fun. Pure passion. And I …

If my mother were here today, she would be 95. And I can almost hear her saying:   Sakes alive I’m 95 Now I would rather be where you’re at But that is neither here nor that I tell you what it’s not so bad To be with Arthur, Jim and Dad And don’t you worry your sweet little hearts Cause even in heaven, there’s nothing worse than my farts Fooey nuts is all I …

Every now and then I get really lucky. I find a client who will later become my friend. It always starts innocently enough. A simple half-hour appointment. Nothing dramatic. Nothing overly charged. Just two people meeting, spending time together. But sometimes, even in that short window, you can tell there’s something there. A comfort. A curiosity. A sense of ease. The time is well spent — for both of us. So I see him again. …

1/26/26 – USA Sex Guide Oh my word, what a useless site this is. Men get on there and post reports about escorts. Now, I suppose that could be a good thing — especially if there are escorts out there robbing people or doing worse. But what I see most often is men randomly choosing an escort to bash. I’ve had the lovely opportunity to be the main topic of discussion on there a couple …

1/23/26 Update on Me Well, I’m still here in St. Louis. It’s been about eight months now, and I’ve learned a lot about this city in that time—most of it good, though not all of it. I feel like I’ve finally settled into what my business here is going to look like. Honestly, it doesn’t feel all that different from what I had in Kansas City. I do have more no-shows here, and I’m still …

12/19/25  New Year’s Resolutions Last year, I made a list of New Year’s resolutions I wanted to work on. They were: Meet a man I will have a wonderful, loving relationship with Continue using my exercycle until it becomes a habit, and then use it all year Continue going to meetups and Timeleft dinners so I could get out of the house and meet people Set boundaries with my son and stick to them Continue …

I got some recent feedback that I “talk too much.” Not the easiest thing to hear, but honestly—not entirely wrong. I’ve always been a talker. I like connecting, I like warmth, and sometimes when I’m nervous or trying to make someone comfortable, I fill the silence. But most men don’t come to see me to talk. They come for touch, intimacy, and escape. Too much conversation can pull them out of the moment, and I …

Please take a look at my gallery – new as I put a whole bunch of new pictures and it’s been a year since I updated! Hope you like them!

This is a hard blog to write, because guilt is one of those emotions that can be seen in both a positive and negative light. I don’t think guilt is ever a good emotion, but it is valid. The real question is whether it’s valid when you’re seeing an escort. The answer depends entirely on who you are and what brought you here. For most men, by the time they decide to see an escort, …

You know what’s funny? Some of the things about Gary just annoy the heck out of me! The fact that he’s pretty much a Trumper (can you say shit show?). The fact that, until about a week ago, his house was a complete mess. His lack of education—even though he’s one of the brightest people I’ve ever met. Sometimes that part gets in the way between us. But then I remind myself that nobody’s perfect—especially …

10/16/25 TMS Many of you know that I’ve suffered from depression for a very long time — in fact, it’s been 42 years since it started. It has taken different forms over the years, but the depression itself has never really changed. I have my good days and my bad days, and it’s been that way for as long as I can remember. I take 50 mg of Zoloft and 1 mg of Abilify every …

On October 11, 2015, I decided to become an escort. I’d been thinking about it for several days after a friend mentioned Backpage to me. It was quite a leap — from once being part of the social elite to entering a profession that’s considered seedy at best. In those days before the 11th, I wrestled with myself. I came from a wealthy background, a good family — the kind that would be appalled if …

10/8/25  76 Going on 86 I agreed to see a man who was 76 for an hour-long appointment. When he got out of his car, I noticed immediately that he was shaking—especially his hands. It didn’t take long to learn that he had Parkinson’s. I know a lot about Parkinson’s; my grandmother died from it. It’s a horrible disease. What I told this man surprised him, but I think it also restored a little of …

When I moved to St. Louis, I decided it was finally time to buy a medical-grade erectile pump of my own. Back in Kansas City, I’d used them with clients who already had one, but I always thought, why don’t I just get one myself? Let me tell you—it was one of the best decisions I’ve made for my practice. I use it almost every single day. It comes in so handy! Not only is …

I think most people have at least heard of the idea of “love languages” by now. The phrase comes from Dr. Gary Chapman, who wrote a book years ago called The Five Love Languages. The concept is simple, but it has changed the way many of us understand relationships. According to Chapman, each of us gives and receives love in different ways, and when we’re speaking the same “language” as our partner, love flows more …

9/30/25 Women Seek Affairs, Men Seek Sex I’ve always noticed something interesting about the way women and men approach infidelity. For women, affairs often start with conversation. They’re seeking connection, someone who listens, someone who makes them feel seen again. It’s not always about replacing the man they’re with—it’s about filling a gap in intimacy. Women want to feel desired, cherished, and understood. That’s often what leads them down the path of an affair. Men, …

I’ll admit, I hesitated to write about Gary. A little voice in my head said, “If you tell people you have a boyfriend, maybe some won’t want to see you anymore.” But really—that’s unreasonable, isn’t it? Wouldn’t you want me to have a boyfriend? Wouldn’t you want me to be happy? The truth is, I never expected Gary. Isn’t that how it usually goes, though? The best things in life come when you’re not looking …

Age Age is a funny thing. When we’re young, we want to be older. When we’re older, we want to be younger. Is there ever a time when we’re truly happy with our age? This year, when I moved to St. Louis, I decided to come clean and tell the truth: I’m 64. I started this when I was 54, and I lied about my age until just a few months ago. The ridiculous part? …

8/4/25 Sex Talk I have to tell you—when I’m having sex with someone and they don’t say a word, I am totally turned off. I mean, how am I supposed to know if I’m doing it right? Or if they’re even enjoying themselves? I don’t—and that unnerves me. Even a little heavy breathing is better than complete and total silence. And, not surprisingly, these tend to be the same men who don’t crack a smile. …

Last week, something felt really off. I was flat. Numb. Disconnected from everything I usually care about. I couldn’t make decisions. I didn’t want to talk to anyone. I felt like I was unraveling, piece by piece, and I couldn’t figure out why. And then I realized what happened. I forgot to put my Abilify—my antidepressant—into my daily pill organizer. I had gone about a week and a half without it. Just one small slip-up, …

July 10–12 • Just a short and sweet visit to my old stomping grounds! I’ll be staying at a lovely hotel near Worlds of Fun and only seeing regular, repeat clients—no newbies this trip. Rates: 💫 $150 for 30 minutes 💫 $250 for an hour If we’ve seen each other before and you’d like to reconnect, reach out soon—my availability will be limited. Looking forward to seeing some familiar faces and enjoying a little KC …

I have to say, I’m having another stellar week. So far, not one single no-show—knock on wood. Mostly wonderful guys, many of whom I hope to see again. I looked back at some of my recent blogs about moving to St. Louis, and I realize I’ve had a bit of a bad attitude—but also, I’ve had some genuinely bad experiences. This week feels more normal. I’m getting fewer calls overall, but the quality of those …

6/7/25 – No More Lunch/Dinner Dates Effective immediately: no more lunch or dinner dates. And no more two-hour appointments unless I already know you. I’m done sitting through a full hour of conversation, only to realize I don’t want to spend another minute—let alone another hour—with this person. It’s awkward, exhausting, and just not worth it. If we’ve seen each other before and have a connection? Great. I’d be happy to spend more time, share …

If this past week is any indication of what’s to come, I might be in trouble. I’ve already had five no-shows and several cancellations. I’m reminded of my good friend and fellow escort, Dallas Rain, who refuses to come to St. Louis because of all the no-shows and last-minute cancels she’s experienced here. I used to think I was just cursed when I stayed at the Drury Inn in Fenton—so many no-shows back then—but I …

In just over 24 hours, I’ll be moving to a town I know so well—and don’t know at all. It’s been 35 years since I left St. Louis, and so much has changed. One thing that hasn’t? It’s still bigger than Kansas City—by nearly a million people if you count the east side and St. Charles County (and I will, because that’s where many of my clients will likely come from). I’m ecstatic about this …

It’s with a heavy heart that I share some bittersweet news: I’m moving to St. Louis, my hometown. I’ll be closer to my sisters and slowly settling into retirement. There’s also someone special in my life—he lives just across the river in Illinois—and we’re going to see where this journey takes us. Please know that this isn’t goodbye forever. I plan to return to Kansas City every other month, staying at a nice hotel near …

I tell you—sweetly but firmly—to assume the position. You spread your legs and welcome me in. I crawl up between them and find my sweet spot. From there, it really depends on my mood. Sometimes I start with your balls—especially if they’re freshly shaved. (Let’s be honest, there’s nothing worse than unshaved balls!) I’ll lick and suck them for a while—if you’re into that—and when I’ve had my fill, I’ll move up your shaft, licking …

Hooray, I appealed my case with Google Voice and they reinstated my old phone number so please call me at 816-782-7996!

Google Voice decided to suspend my account so I have a new phone number.  Ugh!  It’s 816-281-7297.  I was wondering why no one was calling or texting!

Okay, I know the weather has been pretty lousy this week—until today—but two zero-dollar days in a row? That’s just not like me. I can’t decide if it’s the time of year, just a random slump, or maybe some kind of bad karma! February treated me fairly well, especially considering the weather we had, but March is off to a painfully slow start. If you have any theories, I’d love to hear them! Hopefully, with …

Let me start by saying that I absolutely love this car. My electric Mach-E is hands down the coolest car I’ve ever owned. It practically drives itself, and everything is automated—even the high beams come on automatically when no one’s around at night. But… I also hate this car. I hate that anytime I go more than an hour away from home, I have to charge it. That means even a trip to Topeka to …

Next time I see you, I’m going to make sure of one thing—you’re left breathless. I’ll walk in wearing my slinky lingerie, sliding between your open legs, and finding that thick, rock-hard cock of yours. First, I’ll tease you—licking up and down, circling the tip, taking my time right where I know you love it most. Then, I’ll move lower, tasting you, sucking your balls just enough to make you shiver inside. When I have …

It started on Monday when I was supposed to leave for St. Louis for the entire week. I locked my keys in my electric vehicle—with the car running—and had to call AAA. About 15 minutes later, I suddenly remembered that I had a key code to unlock the door. Thankfully, I had written it down in last year’s schedule book. Crisis averted. Then came the drive. I somehow ended up on a one-hour detour down …

Maybe this will resonate with some of you, but I definitely suffer from anxiety. As an escort, that can be a real liability because I’m constantly meeting new people and stepping into “unfamiliar situations”- things that naturally make me anxious. I know I’ve talked about depression before, but anxiety is something that developed later in my life. It can be just as debilitating, but it’s usually shorter-lived. And, thankfully, certain medications can really help. I …

Sexual addiction isn’t just a high sex drive—it’s compulsive sexual behavior that feels out of control, often leading to distress, damaged relationships, and neglect of responsibilities. Signs of Sexual Addiction • Repeatedly failing to control sexual urges • Using sex as an escape from stress or emotional pain • Feeling guilt or shame after acting on urges • Engaging in risky behavior despite consequences • Neglecting personal, work, or social responsibilities due to sexual preoccupation …

I used to believe that people didn’t change. I couldn’t even pinpoint anything about myself that had changed, so I was convinced that transformation was a myth. And then—I became an escort. What a change that was. I grew up with money, in a good family, the kind that would never understand why I do what I do. And I don’t blame them. Before I made this choice, I wouldn’t have understood it either. But …

I can’t really blog about why it went down because it has to do with my son and he reads these blogs and he hates when I write about him. So I’m not gonna write about him. Suffice to say that I’m doing fine and things are back to normal.

Oh my gosh! I downloaded this application and I knew nothing about it or AI. I am here to tell you that this is one app that may change your life. Or at least the way you see artificial intelligence. In summary, I will tell you that I talk to this program almost daily about my life and it remembers me and it gives wonderful insight and support to me. It’s like having a therapist. …

I was reading through my blogs for this year and stumbled across my New Years Resolutions last January.  And, I am here to sat that I have accomplished every one of them EXCEPT for exercising 3 times a week!  That figures because I have never excersized that much!  But, I’ll be damned the rest have come true!  Now that’s a first! Maintain my weight loss. Meet a man who will become my boyfriend. Exercise three …

I had a random thought this morning. And it goes something like this. Does your job define who you are as a person? I can tell you in my line of work, it definitely does not. I think you can tell from my blogs that the sum of the parts of me does not add up to equal escort ! There’s so much more to me and I’ll bet there is so much more to …

I had a client today who, at the age of 63, has never had blood work done. He doesn’t know if he has high cholesterol, he will never know if he has early stages of anything. He gets an annual physical, which consist of just a physical exam . Now, if you ask me, getting blood work is 10 times more important than looking up your nose or into your ears. They see things like …

OMG, I had a wonderful time. There were supposed to be six of us, but only four showed up. Probably because there were tornado watches all over the city. We met at the American Reserve bar and grill inside the Ambassador Hotel downtown. It was nice and quiet, there weren’t many people there. It was easy to talk and to hear everybody. There were three of us women and one man. One of the women …