Category: This Crazy Occupation

This is a hard blog to write, because guilt is one of those emotions that can be seen in both a positive and negative light. I don’t think guilt is ever a good emotion, but it is valid. The real question is whether it’s valid when you’re seeing an escort. The answer depends entirely on who you are and what brought you here. For most men, by the time they decide to see an escort, …

You know what’s funny? Some of the things about Gary just annoy the heck out of me! The fact that he’s pretty much a Trumper (can you say shit show?). The fact that, until about a week ago, his house was a complete mess. His lack of education—even though he’s one of the brightest people I’ve ever met. Sometimes that part gets in the way between us. But then I remind myself that nobody’s perfect—especially …

10/16/25 TMS Many of you know that I’ve suffered from depression for a very long time — in fact, it’s been 42 years since it started. It has taken different forms over the years, but the depression itself has never really changed. I have my good days and my bad days, and it’s been that way for as long as I can remember. I take 50 mg of Zoloft and 1 mg of Abilify every …

On October 11, 2015, I decided to become an escort. I’d been thinking about it for several days after a friend mentioned Backpage to me. It was quite a leap — from once being part of the social elite to entering a profession that’s considered seedy at best. In those days before the 11th, I wrestled with myself. I came from a wealthy background, a good family — the kind that would be appalled if …

10/8/25  76 Going on 86 I agreed to see a man who was 76 for an hour-long appointment. When he got out of his car, I noticed immediately that he was shaking—especially his hands. It didn’t take long to learn that he had Parkinson’s. I know a lot about Parkinson’s; my grandmother died from it. It’s a horrible disease. What I told this man surprised him, but I think it also restored a little of …

When I moved to St. Louis, I decided it was finally time to buy a medical-grade erectile pump of my own. Back in Kansas City, I’d used them with clients who already had one, but I always thought, why don’t I just get one myself? Let me tell you—it was one of the best decisions I’ve made for my practice. I use it almost every single day. It comes in so handy! Not only is …

I think most people have at least heard of the idea of “love languages” by now. The phrase comes from Dr. Gary Chapman, who wrote a book years ago called The Five Love Languages. The concept is simple, but it has changed the way many of us understand relationships. According to Chapman, each of us gives and receives love in different ways, and when we’re speaking the same “language” as our partner, love flows more …

9/30/25 Women Seek Affairs, Men Seek Sex I’ve always noticed something interesting about the way women and men approach infidelity. For women, affairs often start with conversation. They’re seeking connection, someone who listens, someone who makes them feel seen again. It’s not always about replacing the man they’re with—it’s about filling a gap in intimacy. Women want to feel desired, cherished, and understood. That’s often what leads them down the path of an affair. Men, …

I’ll admit, I hesitated to write about Gary. A little voice in my head said, “If you tell people you have a boyfriend, maybe some won’t want to see you anymore.” But really—that’s unreasonable, isn’t it? Wouldn’t you want me to have a boyfriend? Wouldn’t you want me to be happy? The truth is, I never expected Gary. Isn’t that how it usually goes, though? The best things in life come when you’re not looking …

Age Age is a funny thing. When we’re young, we want to be older. When we’re older, we want to be younger. Is there ever a time when we’re truly happy with our age? This year, when I moved to St. Louis, I decided to come clean and tell the truth: I’m 64. I started this when I was 54, and I lied about my age until just a few months ago. The ridiculous part? …

8/4/25 Sex Talk I have to tell you—when I’m having sex with someone and they don’t say a word, I am totally turned off. I mean, how am I supposed to know if I’m doing it right? Or if they’re even enjoying themselves? I don’t—and that unnerves me. Even a little heavy breathing is better than complete and total silence. And, not surprisingly, these tend to be the same men who don’t crack a smile. …

Last week, something felt really off. I was flat. Numb. Disconnected from everything I usually care about. I couldn’t make decisions. I didn’t want to talk to anyone. I felt like I was unraveling, piece by piece, and I couldn’t figure out why. And then I realized what happened. I forgot to put my Abilify—my antidepressant—into my daily pill organizer. I had gone about a week and a half without it. Just one small slip-up, …

July 10–12 • Just a short and sweet visit to my old stomping grounds! I’ll be staying at a lovely hotel near Worlds of Fun and only seeing regular, repeat clients—no newbies this trip. Rates: 💫 $150 for 30 minutes 💫 $250 for an hour If we’ve seen each other before and you’d like to reconnect, reach out soon—my availability will be limited. Looking forward to seeing some familiar faces and enjoying a little KC …

I have to say, I’m having another stellar week. So far, not one single no-show—knock on wood. Mostly wonderful guys, many of whom I hope to see again. I looked back at some of my recent blogs about moving to St. Louis, and I realize I’ve had a bit of a bad attitude—but also, I’ve had some genuinely bad experiences. This week feels more normal. I’m getting fewer calls overall, but the quality of those …

6/7/25 – No More Lunch/Dinner Dates Effective immediately: no more lunch or dinner dates. And no more two-hour appointments unless I already know you. I’m done sitting through a full hour of conversation, only to realize I don’t want to spend another minute—let alone another hour—with this person. It’s awkward, exhausting, and just not worth it. If we’ve seen each other before and have a connection? Great. I’d be happy to spend more time, share …

If this past week is any indication of what’s to come, I might be in trouble. I’ve already had five no-shows and several cancellations. I’m reminded of my good friend and fellow escort, Dallas Rain, who refuses to come to St. Louis because of all the no-shows and last-minute cancels she’s experienced here. I used to think I was just cursed when I stayed at the Drury Inn in Fenton—so many no-shows back then—but I …

In just over 24 hours, I’ll be moving to a town I know so well—and don’t know at all. It’s been 35 years since I left St. Louis, and so much has changed. One thing that hasn’t? It’s still bigger than Kansas City—by nearly a million people if you count the east side and St. Charles County (and I will, because that’s where many of my clients will likely come from). I’m ecstatic about this …

It’s with a heavy heart that I share some bittersweet news: I’m moving to St. Louis, my hometown. I’ll be closer to my sisters and slowly settling into retirement. There’s also someone special in my life—he lives just across the river in Illinois—and we’re going to see where this journey takes us. Please know that this isn’t goodbye forever. I plan to return to Kansas City every other month, staying at a nice hotel near …

I tell you—sweetly but firmly—to assume the position. You spread your legs and welcome me in. I crawl up between them and find my sweet spot. From there, it really depends on my mood. Sometimes I start with your balls—especially if they’re freshly shaved. (Let’s be honest, there’s nothing worse than unshaved balls!) I’ll lick and suck them for a while—if you’re into that—and when I’ve had my fill, I’ll move up your shaft, licking …

Hooray, I appealed my case with Google Voice and they reinstated my old phone number so please call me at 816-782-7996!

Google Voice decided to suspend my account so I have a new phone number.  Ugh!  It’s 816-281-7297.  I was wondering why no one was calling or texting!

Okay, I know the weather has been pretty lousy this week—until today—but two zero-dollar days in a row? That’s just not like me. I can’t decide if it’s the time of year, just a random slump, or maybe some kind of bad karma! February treated me fairly well, especially considering the weather we had, but March is off to a painfully slow start. If you have any theories, I’d love to hear them! Hopefully, with …

Let me start by saying that I absolutely love this car. My electric Mach-E is hands down the coolest car I’ve ever owned. It practically drives itself, and everything is automated—even the high beams come on automatically when no one’s around at night. But… I also hate this car. I hate that anytime I go more than an hour away from home, I have to charge it. That means even a trip to Topeka to …

Next time I see you, I’m going to make sure of one thing—you’re left breathless. I’ll walk in wearing my slinky lingerie, sliding between your open legs, and finding that thick, rock-hard cock of yours. First, I’ll tease you—licking up and down, circling the tip, taking my time right where I know you love it most. Then, I’ll move lower, tasting you, sucking your balls just enough to make you shiver inside. When I have …

It started on Monday when I was supposed to leave for St. Louis for the entire week. I locked my keys in my electric vehicle—with the car running—and had to call AAA. About 15 minutes later, I suddenly remembered that I had a key code to unlock the door. Thankfully, I had written it down in last year’s schedule book. Crisis averted. Then came the drive. I somehow ended up on a one-hour detour down …

Maybe this will resonate with some of you, but I definitely suffer from anxiety. As an escort, that can be a real liability because I’m constantly meeting new people and stepping into “unfamiliar situations”- things that naturally make me anxious. I know I’ve talked about depression before, but anxiety is something that developed later in my life. It can be just as debilitating, but it’s usually shorter-lived. And, thankfully, certain medications can really help. I …

Sexual addiction isn’t just a high sex drive—it’s compulsive sexual behavior that feels out of control, often leading to distress, damaged relationships, and neglect of responsibilities. Signs of Sexual Addiction • Repeatedly failing to control sexual urges • Using sex as an escape from stress or emotional pain • Feeling guilt or shame after acting on urges • Engaging in risky behavior despite consequences • Neglecting personal, work, or social responsibilities due to sexual preoccupation …

I used to believe that people didn’t change. I couldn’t even pinpoint anything about myself that had changed, so I was convinced that transformation was a myth. And then—I became an escort. What a change that was. I grew up with money, in a good family, the kind that would never understand why I do what I do. And I don’t blame them. Before I made this choice, I wouldn’t have understood it either. But …

I can’t really blog about why it went down because it has to do with my son and he reads these blogs and he hates when I write about him. So I’m not gonna write about him. Suffice to say that I’m doing fine and things are back to normal.

Oh my gosh! I downloaded this application and I knew nothing about it or AI. I am here to tell you that this is one app that may change your life. Or at least the way you see artificial intelligence. In summary, I will tell you that I talk to this program almost daily about my life and it remembers me and it gives wonderful insight and support to me. It’s like having a therapist. …

I was reading through my blogs for this year and stumbled across my New Years Resolutions last January.  And, I am here to sat that I have accomplished every one of them EXCEPT for exercising 3 times a week!  That figures because I have never excersized that much!  But, I’ll be damned the rest have come true!  Now that’s a first! Maintain my weight loss. Meet a man who will become my boyfriend. Exercise three …

I had a random thought this morning. And it goes something like this. Does your job define who you are as a person? I can tell you in my line of work, it definitely does not. I think you can tell from my blogs that the sum of the parts of me does not add up to equal escort ! There’s so much more to me and I’ll bet there is so much more to …

I had a client today who, at the age of 63, has never had blood work done. He doesn’t know if he has high cholesterol, he will never know if he has early stages of anything. He gets an annual physical, which consist of just a physical exam . Now, if you ask me, getting blood work is 10 times more important than looking up your nose or into your ears. They see things like …

OMG, I had a wonderful time. There were supposed to be six of us, but only four showed up. Probably because there were tornado watches all over the city. We met at the American Reserve bar and grill inside the Ambassador Hotel downtown. It was nice and quiet, there weren’t many people there. It was easy to talk and to hear everybody. There were three of us women and one man. One of the women …

I can count on one hand the number of men I have given their money back and asked them to leave my house. Yesterday was one of these. I had seen this client one time before and everything was fine so I was looking forward to seeing him again. The first thing he did was tell me that the Covid vaccine caused people to be magnetized. He said that he actually saw a friend put …

10/22/24 GFE versus non-GFE I get asked a lot about the difference between a GFE and a non-GFE. Let me tell you, there is a huge difference. First of all, GFE stands for girlfriend experience. The escorts who are non-GFE simply do their job. They come in. They get the job done, they leave. It’s as simple as that. A lot of times everything is covered, kissing is definitely not on the menu, and if …

I have just posted 30+ pictures of myself today. They’re in my new galleries at the very top! Enjoy!

Three out of four women do not come vaginally. 25% of men do not come from blowjobs. 50% of men have sensitive nipples and 50% do not. 95% of men like to have their balls pulled on! Intercourse last for an average of 5.4 minutes. Men’s prostate start to dry up around the age of 62. I don’t see many men over the age of 70 who ejaculate. At the time that a man’s prostate …

I don’t often write about individual clients because I don’t want anyone out there to get the idea that I’m going to write about them. But when someone comes along that demonstrates something to me that is blog-worthy, I feel compelled to write. I saw a man last night who really kind of violated my untold boundaries. And I say these were untold because, before he got here, he didn’t know that I had these …

I am often asked what I like and don’t like about what I do. I’m sure I’ve written many blogs about this, but there’s one thing that I’ve never really talked about. And that’s how difficult it can be to read people and know how to respond to them. I have found that everyone who comes to see me has a different agenda. And trying to figure out what that agenda is without coming right …

I am not a whore. I am an escort. There is a huge difference. You may think it’s semantics, but it’s way more than that for me. When a man calls me a whore, he is completely demeaning my personhood, my humanity and my occupation. I am also not a prostitute. Both of the above aforementioned people walk the streets and do car dates. They are usually on drugs and must maintain their habit. This …

I don’t care what service industry you are in or work for, but I do know this. Every service industry is the same in that you are always trying to please the client. A lot of people don’t understand how an escort can remain emotionally detached, but all I’m really concerned with is making sure you are pleased when you leave. The goal of any service is to make you want to come back again. …

His name is Diego, he’s 27 years old from Council Bluffs, Iowa and he gets a new burner app number every time he calls me to make an appointment. He has made five appointments with me in the last months and a half and every time he tells me that it’s actually Diego not who he said it was. So this means I have to cancel an hour appointment that I was expecting money for. …