So I will be going back to December 5-8 and I hope to see some of the guys I saw this time because I had a really good time with most of them. It really did turn out to be one of my better trips.

Now that my mother has passed on, I’m finding fewer and fewer reasons to travel to St. Louis. Especially when I got here this trip and I’ve had a no-show, two cancellations and five people have not confirmed. Probably the worst trip I’ve had in St. Louis ever. And I realize to myself that I don’t really have a reason to come here anymore. If I want to see my sister, I’ll plan a weekend to come see my sister . But for all the work that goes into planning a trip to St. Louis and all the expenses that are incurred in doing so are not worth the aggravation that I feel as I’m writing this. It seems like each time I come I have fewer and fewer regulars wanting to see me. If that isn’t a sign, I don’t know what is.

I’ve enjoyed coming to St. Louis but right now being here just reminds me that I can’t see my mother. And that just brings up my grief. And being 300 miles away from home and in a hotel room without my cats to comfort me and my home surroundings, I’m at a loss to figure out why I’m here.  I don’t think I’ll miss traveling. And if I can’t make enough to make it worth it then just screw it. I don’t need the aggravation anymore.

I won’t miss coming to St. Louis when the one person that I wanted to see is not here anymore. I really hope that my sister and I can forge some sort of new relationship that isn’t based on my mother. I guess time will tell.

I am always so happy to see you and spend time with you. And every time I come, I get to meet new, fun, generous men who are so good to me and so appreciative of me. I appreciate you also.  I’m looking forward to coming back every single month. And even though I had to charge my electric vehicle four times there and back, it was well worth it! Stay safe and I’ll see you July 18 through the 20th.

have decided to add Specific Girlfriend Services.  GFE Services will include daily emails/texts, phone calls, meet for a drink, discounts on sessions and pictures/videos customized to you!  I will have a section on my Donations Page…

4/21/24 OMG St. Louis

St. Louis never stops amazing me. Each time I go, I do better than the last time. Now, I did have three no-shows and one person threatened me, but other than that, this was the best trip I’ve ever had. I made more in two days than I make in a week and a half. But it’s not just about the money. It’s about seeing the same guys that I’ve seen in February and January and last November. I am developing a regular crowd there and I love it. I just wrote a blog about how nerve-racking it is to see new people, especially when I’m seeing so many new people in a day but now I’m not. And I just love that.  I will tell you this.  If Kansas City ever goes south, I could definitely see moving to St. Lou.

4/21/24 More Thoughts on My Gastric Bypass

It’s been a year and eight months since I got my gastric bypass. I have successfully lost 110 pounds and kept it off for six months. And I really don’t think that I’m going to regain my weight and I will tell you why. I still can only eat 4 to 6 bites at a time. And this is the most difficult part of having gotten the gastric bypass. They shrink your stomach so much that you can’t eat very much at one time and you don’t feel like eating for some time because your digestion has slowed. The problem becomes when you zone out while you’re eating and eat too much. OMG, I have never felt such pain in my stomach. And the difficulty lies in the fact that I used to eat a four course meal and now I’m lucky to eat a fourth of a course. It definitely makes going out to eat either a very slow process or a very frustrating one. If I take 30 minutes to eat my meal, I can eat more than a fourth of course. I can probably eat one course. But the food gets cold. Which, I’ve gotten used to, I have to say. 

So now you know how I maintain my weight. And on top of that, there are some days that I just don’t feel like eating. And the only thing that helps with that is to get high because marijuana numbs your stomach. It’s great for when you have the stomach flu and when you don’t feel like eating. Because it takes the pain and nausea away. I’m sure most people reading this are not feeling too bad for me. But if you saw me after I ate 10 bites instead of six, you would see someone in pretty intense pain. It seems like anytime I put food on my plate, I pretty much know I’m going to only eat half of it. Which can make for a very cheap date! I’m still really happy that I had the gastric bypass and even though I have had so many complications from it, I’m past all that and I feel like I’ve finally arrived.

I don’t tend to judge people anymore who are overweight. I simply say a little prayer to myself that they will find their way to a gastric bypass.  I bought a really cute mini dress in St. Louis and I just reveled at how adorable I looked! My sister said to me that I looked really good and I told her that I looked really good in clothes and she replied “that’s all there is at our age”! I suppose she’s somewhat right.

I have begun to write down the number of times each day I deal with BS. Yesterday it was nine times. I’ve been telling clients that for every appointment that I set, I probably talk to seven other guys before them! They are either a scam or too young or too black and young or they just rub me the wrong way. Low Ballers, guys who don’t read my ad and ask stupid questions, and just a myriad of bullshit out there. I think anybody who deals in sales or customer service probably goes through the same thing. Where are the guys that simply ask if you’re available, tell you their name, age and race and when they’re going to show up?

4/18/24 There’s Always One

I’m in St. Louis and my first appointment that scheduled with me two weeks ago did not show up. If that were the only thing I had to say about the guy, I wouldn’t be all that concerned. But not only did he no-show, he threatened me. He threatened to call the hotel I’m staying at and let them know about me. He told me that he had talked with four people that said I do BBFS and he read a blog where I had an STD.  In the first place, how could he have talked to four people that I’ve seen? No possible way. Secondly, you can’t even read my old blogs now and he hasn’t been able to the whole time he’s known me. And I never wrote about having an STD. So this guy was utter bullshit and I told him that if he called the hotel, I would retaliate. And I really would. I don’t like to be threatened, nobody does. But in my line of work, I take that very seriously. Now, he didn’t call the hotel or if he did, they didn’t let me know.  I simply was going to tell them that this guy was an old boyfriend who knew I was coming here and is harassing me.  There always seems to be one misogynist who schedules with me, then doesn’t show and harasses me.  I guess in my occupation, you have to take everything seriously, but in all actuality, I’ve never had any real trouble when I travel. And, of course, I didn’t today either.

I often think about what this world is all about. I’ve heard it said many times that the point to life is love. Being loved and giving love. This is why I talk about love so much in my blogs. It’s important to me. And if sometimes I sound a little desperate, it’s because sometimes I feel a little desperate. But then I get over myself and realize that even a life alone is a good life or at least it can be. Make no doubt about it, I will continue to look for love wherever I can find it. Love is fluid and it comes and goes. I suppose true love does not come and go. How many of us actually find true love? And isn’t true love just love that’s built over time. When I ask men if their wives are their best friends, I’m not asking them for my sake, I’m asking them for their sake. And it occurs to me that I could lose clients because of this question but the point is that you don’t give up your best friend especially later in life. And most of the men I see are later in life. True love is coming home to your best friend every single night and seeing them every single morning. That’s what I believe.

3/17/24 Paid Lover/Mistress

For many of my clients, and mostly those that I see often, I am their paid lover. Call me a lover or call me a mistress but that is what I am. It’s all a matter of how regular a customer you want to be. If you see me once every six months or even once a year, that’s a maintenance kind of relationship. Someone safe to see when you need that extra boost. It’s really only in those client/companion relationships where I see you once a month or more that we develop a connection.

Once that connection is developed, it’s hard to break it. Both parties look forward to the next time they’re going to see each other and both parties might think about it several times before they actually see each other. But the tenor of the relationship is so much different based on how often I see you. I have to say that I truly enjoy being a part-time lover. I think the men that I see often would probably not call me by that term, but it applies nevertheless. Sometimes, if I’m really comfortable, I will even let you call me your dirty little whore. But I have to be very comfortable for that!

This relationship, this connection, evolves as you get to know somebody. I catch myself enough to say that not every connection evolves. And when I say the word evolve, I mean that that connection grows deeper and the things we will try together can become more complex and more kinky for that matter. Yet, for some, it stays the same. That’s what they need and that’s what they desire, and they don’t look to change that. Which is kind of interesting because, often times, that is exactly what their marriage looks like.

I, as a person, crave connection. I don’t think this is true of everybody, but it is certainly true of me. And I do look forward to seeing the people that I have a connection with. I work with the goal of making that connection. But other things also come into play such as finances and availability. Like I said before, I will not probably make that connection with you if I only see you sporadically. If you don’t have the finances and the availability to see someone regularly, that can hinder this. I think this is why a lot of escorts want to see older, generous men. In this way, they know that there is a good chance that these men will have the finances/availability to see someone regularly.

Isn’t that the goal of every escort? To have a stable of regulars, and never have to worry about seeing someone new? Just in the same way that you don’t want to see someone new because of the challenges involved in doing so, I would rather see people I’ve already seen. This is why escorts verify you through other escorts that you have seen in the past. This is one of the only ways to know that you are not involved in law-enforcement. I understand why they do it, but I’m not willing to go there. I’m OK with simply not talking about sex in a text. And certainly not sex and money in a text.

I end this blog with just a statement. I hope that the men I see regularly recognize themselves in this blog. I so enjoy your company and I look forward to seeing you every single time. You are my bread and butter and my cats meow. I will endeavor to pretty much do anything to keep you around. OK, within reason!

3/17/24 Never ask this: are you a cop?

There is absolutely no reason to ever ask an escort or a client if they are a cop, and these are the reasons why.

1. The only cops that are not in uniform are undercover municipal police, and they never have to tell you if they are a cop.

2. Police that are investigating or looking into a possible crime, can lie about anything to get the information they want. This includes telling you if they are a cop or not. They can also have sex with you and then bust you. Most police departments frown upon this, but I’m not saying that it doesn’t happen.

3. You will never get busted by a sheriff because they do not have anything to do with vice. And you will never find an undercover sheriff because they don’t exist. It is always municipal police that do this work.

4. Your best bet against getting busted is to find someone who has a lot of good reviews and looks like they would be safe and then stick with that person, especially if you like them.

5. Just remember, if you’re seeing someone new in Kansas, you don’t want to go to a hotel because they are using Hyatt Place hotels to bust people in Johnson county.  If they can afford to use a Hyatt Place you don’t know where they might show up.

6. The better questions to ask are how long ng have you been doing this and do you live in a house? You can see on list crawler how long they have been on that site. I would definitely stay away from the ones who have only been on there for a day or a week. Cops place ads sporadically, whereas escorts place ads every single day so you need to look at the old posts also to see how often they are placing ads. If they’re not placing ads every single day, it’s probably either a scam, or a bust, but more likely the former.

3/17/24 Fell in Love with Omaha!

OMG, I had such a good time in Omaha! I had my best day ever fiscally, and that created my best week ever. I feel like I’m finally coming into my own. I was told many times that I was completely different from anybody else they’ve met. I love those words! That’s because I like to think of myself as being different and that’s a good thing. Of course, they also meant it in the nicest light.

I literally had no no-shows. I did have one guy who canceled at the last minute and then told me he lied because he was just paranoid. He wanted to have a drink with me and I found out that that’s all he really wanted. so I guess you could call that a no-show. Definitely a waste of my time and I let him know this.

This is the first trip that I actually made more money than I projected based on the appointments I had set up. Even though I had a couple cancellations, I was able to fill those spots readily. As usual, I got many phone calls while I was there and several afterwards. I will be going back May 9-11!

I think what made this trip so special and wonderful for me is the fact that I only had one half hour appointment. The rest were all an hour or more. So I think what I’m going to do from now on is raise my half hour rate to encourage more hour appointments because that’s really what I like. I would much rather see five men for an hour than eight men for a half hour. I did not feel stressed out at all during this trip because it was so low volume.

The hardest part of traveling is meeting, so many new people in such a short time. I suppose if I really didn’t give a shit who I saw or if I saw them again, it wouldn’t be so nerve-racking. But I’m trying to get to know each and every person. I believe that’s the only way to form any kind of connection. I suppose that’s a big reason for why I blog in the first place. I want you to get to know me, I want you to feel a connection to me.

I am going to try to cultivate more hour long and hour plus appointments. I will be putting out new touring rates today. I will end this blog with “Omaha, I love you!”.

I think I was Miss Popularity this past weekend in St. Louis. I had one no-show, which is unheard of, and too many appointments to list on here. I tend to be a very low volume provider in Kansas City, but in St. Louis, I kind of have to pack them in. I’m only there for two days and then I go see my mother. And this time I had more takers than appointment times.  What a good feeling to know that I am wanted! And if you didn’t know this before, that’s a big plus to what I do. Every time I make an appointment and it’s kept, I know they wanted me! So I felt very wanted in St. Louis and now I’m really looking forward to going back and I will be going back probably January 18/19 (wink wink).

11/16/23 Strung Along Again!

I’m telling you, dating at my age is kind of ludicrous! Three times in a row, and within about the span of a month, I have talked with three different men and each one has strung me along. The first one told me after a week of talking that he was not ready for a relationship yet. The next one told me, after a week of the same, that he was dating another woman. The third one told me after a week of solid straight talking during the day and night, that he was in love with another woman! What is wrong with me that I am attracting these kind of guys? Or is it just dumb luck? At any rate, I’m sick of it! I’m gonna start asking guys: Are you in love with another woman? Are you ready for another relationship? And are you dating anybody else? They’ll probably look at me like I’m crazy and maybe I am. I think you have to be a little crazy to be in the dating market these days. And it’s not just my age. I hear it from a lot of different people of all different ages. The online dating scene is a joke. Period.

11/16/23 Another Good Use for Marijuana

well, I came home from St. Louis with a terrible stomach ache. I wanted to tell you that when you have a stomach ache, you should run, not walk, to your local dispensary, and get either gummies or weed and a pipe and a lighter! This is because marijuana makes your stomach pain go away. It also produces a substance called Gherlin which makes you get hungry when you smoke marijuana. Your stomach never feels full. So it helps numb your stomach so that the pain goes away and it helps make you hungry, which is kind of important.  It also helps with nausea due to the same mechanism.  Besides that, the euphoria is awfully nice! And now Ohio has legalized it also. Yay!