When men can’t perform the way they think they should, they get very discouraged. And once that discouragement sets in, it’s like a switch flips—suddenly, the session feels over. There’s not much I can do at that point to bring things back. The best I can offer is a warm, relaxing massage and my signature back tickle.

It may not be what they came for, but it’s still something special. Honestly, my back tickle is an experience in and of itself—most people have never had anything like it. But I know that’s not what’s on their mind when they book the appointment.

Still, I want to be clear: it’s not my fault, and it’s not theirs either. It’s almost always due to nerves, ED, or both. Erectile dysfunction can start around age 48, and by the late 50s, it’s incredibly common. There are lots of things that can help with ED, but that’s not what this blog is about.

What I want to say is: it’s normal to feel discouraged the first time you see an escort. It’s nerve-racking! I do my best to help you feel calm and comfortable, but sometimes it’s just hard to relax—especially when you’re putting pressure on yourself.

And I really believe that if you’re not going to feel comfortable with me, you’re probably not going to feel comfortable with anyone. That’s why I always say: find someone you like and stick with them. It’s easier, safer, and just makes everything better.

I’ve had a few appointments lately where I know the client left feeling disappointed. Mostly disappointed in themselves, but maybe a little in me, too. And that hurts. I’m disappointed, too—mostly because I know I probably won’t see them again. And even though I did everything I could, it still feels like I failed.

But I know I didn’t. And still… it stings.

I guess it just is what it is.

It’s not that I don’t want to see men over 65. I love them. They’re respectful, prompt, and generous. I just have to figure out how to go about pleasing them. I find that men of all ages who are not having sex miss touch more than anything. Even more than sex. Because let’s be reasonable, you can have an orgasm on your own . But you can’t be touched on your own and that is something I specialize in.

So I’m hoping that my skills, my personality, and my touch/compassion will keep them coming back.

Well, you might have noticed if you read my blogs regularly that I took all the blogs down about Alex. I did this because I didn’t want to put out that energy to the universe and I felt that they were depressing blogs that I didn’t really want anybody else reading. I have since found out that he does not want a relationship or a friendship with me. He has shown me this through his actions. And actions speak louder than words. so we are not talking, and I doubt we ever will again. I basically got bamboozled by this guy and I learned a lot about how to approach a relationship. I will not make the same mistakes I made with him. Of course, he omitted to tell me that he had a drinking problem, and quite honestly, I don’t think there’s much you can do about a recovering alcoholic especially when they’re not even 30 days sober. I know I’m much better off for leaving this relationship. 

2/8/24 Update on my gastric bypass

I was going to entitle this blog, I Sag! But I didn’t want people to not read it! As a result of losing 110 pounds, can I just say that I look great in clothes, I am way more healthy and will probably live longer and I feel better. But, the part about looking better naked is suspect. I do sag. My boobs have lost a cup and I feel like they’re down to my bellybutton. Of course they aren’t but you know what I mean. My stomach is smaller, but it still sags. My arms sag, my thighs sag, my butt sags, even my pussy sags!  I thought about having a tummy tuck done in Mexico. A client told me that he had a gastric bypass there and it went really well and they were a very professional outfit in Cancun. That would make me a lot happier and somewhat poorer. Not sure if that’s a word. At any rate, I am who I am. My body is what it is. And when I ask clients, who have known me since I was fat, whether I look better fat or skinny, they always say skinny. Or they say they like me at both weights. Which is actually very nice to hear.

2/8/24 You Can’t Force Intimacy

Even with an escort! I was with a man last night, who was very sweet, very generous, and very married. But what creeped me out about him was that he treated me like he’d known me six months and we had been dating that long. He had no boundaries around what might be appropriate with me on our first date. He wanted me to treat him like we were boyfriend and girlfriend. Well, that was his fantasy, not mine. I suppose I have walls and boundaries set up so that I don’t feel creeped out, and most men do not do this to me. I usually have to do a little coaxing with them, but they never want to just give give give. That was what was up with this guy. I think when we were texting, I started to get the feeling of it being too soon and too much. Kind of like my last relationship. But this guy was married and it wasn’t gonna go anywhere. I certainly was not going to get into a relationship with a married man, I’ve done that and I will not go back. Horrible, horrible experience. So, in the end, I made him leave early. It wasn’t just that he creeped me out, it was more that I was exhausted, and having trouble keeping my eyes open. But even if I wasn’t exhausted, I would’ve let him leave. He gladly took the money that I offered him. I think what I’m going to take from this is to recognize through texts where a person is coming from. If I’m kind of creeped out in their texts, I’m going to be creeped out by them. It doesn’t happen often, but last night was a very good example.

2/8/24 Relationship Truths

1. If love was enough, every relationship would have a 100% success rate.

2. Bad relationships change good people.

3. Toxic is when they can’t let you go, but they can’t treat you right either.

4. Authentic love may be unconditional but it does not mean unconditional tolerance.

5. You can take your power back by letting people go.

6. The moment that you start to wonder if you deserve better, you do.

7. Sometimes rejection is redirection towards something better.

8. Healthy relationships include uncomfortable conversations.

9. Loyalty behind your back is really top tier.

10. Kindness is not flirting.

• Attention is not love.

• Silence is not anger

2/8/24 Hawaii Man is Back!

Well, it’s kind of a funny story. I blocked Ken after we “broke up“ and then later I decided to unblock him. Well, he tried to get in touch with me when I had blocked him and couldn’t figure out why I wasn’t contacting him back. And then, one day after I unblocked him, he sent me a text. And that was all she wrote. I mean we’re not back to where we were, but he did send me the most gorgeous decorated egg, and I love these. He had also sent me a gorgeous robe from the Wynn hotel. And he has been very generous with me in the past. We have talked about me going to Hawaii for another work vacation, but I’m not sure I wanna fly that far. We had also talked about us going to Las Vegas and staying at the Wynn hotel. I don’t know if any of this will happen but I’m glad that we’re back talking. I had missed him. He missed me too. I think it just goes to show that when you’ve known somebody two years and you care for them, silly, stupid arguments can be forgiven and forgotten.

If you have this preconceived notion that 71-year-olds are old people and look like old people, you would be sorely mistaken with this client that I had the other day. We laughed almost the entire time we were together. I was in rare form. Everything I said was funny. Like I said, rare form. But I digress. This man told me upfront that he was 61, but when I met him I asked him how old he was and he said he was really 71. I gasped! “no fucking way“ is exactly what I said. And I would say it again. He had very few wrinkles. He had some non-distinct lines on his forehead as we all do over 60 or even over 50. He was in shape like you wouldn’t believe, and very good looking with a mop of grayish brown hair. And he didn’t act 71 at all. The reason that he came to see me was that he was with a woman who didn’t know how to have sex and really didn’t want to have sex. She didn’t even want to touch or kiss him. But he liked her in every other way. So I told him to stay with her and come see me every other week! I think that’s a perfect arrangement!!

2/7/24 My Apologies to My Readership

It has come to my attention that when I post a blog, my readers get two emails instead of just one. I want to apologize for this, and I will look into it. In the meantime, just delete one! And just be happy that I’m blogging a lot again!

2/7/24 He Also Thought He Could

I had a client a couple weeks ago, who was adamant that, even at his age of 60, he could perform twice in an hour. I called his bluff. And I knew from experience that whatever time the first go around takes, his second go-round was going to be twice as long. And it was. And he did give up. And I wanted to say “I told you so“ but that would’ve been rude. I just smiled and kept my mouth shut like a good little companion! Such a silly man. And who knows if he was even 60.

I just got done blogging about the fact that I’m probably going to be alone for the rest of my life and I’ll be damned if a guy doesn’t come into my life right after that blog. I’m a big believer in karma, but I don’t know what to make of this. He is Age-appropriate, very chill and cool, thinks I am simply gorgeous, and sent me flowers after the first date. Always a good thing to do. Oh, he has his issues and three kids so time spent together may be at a premium. But I really don’t have much of a problem with that. Especially since lately I’ve been working a lot at night. I guess we shall see what becomes of this guy. I will say this. He gives me butterflies.

Update: well that lasted a whole three days. And all I can say is that you shouldn’t date a guy with three kids and work 60 hours a week.