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1/1/22  No More VIP

When I saw how few men asked for my new password for my VIP page that I realized it was past it’s prime.  If you can tell me the old or new password, send me your email, I will give you a free subscription to my OnlyFans page.    The content is exactly the same as my VIP page had.

1/7/22 Resolutions for the new year

As if I’ll keep them

  • Lose Weight and keep it off.

  • Make more friends.

  • Have a good year Financially.

  • Take a Vacation

1/7/22 $2500 for a lawyer in Johnson County

You heard me right.  If you have to hire an attorney for a solicitation charge you’re looking at $2500.  And that does not include court or fines.  Up north, it’s half that.  And all for what will most likely be a simple diversion.  That’s what my friend is going to get.  Diversion is where they say ” don’t do anything bad for a year and we’ll dismiss the case”.  Four years after your diversion is over, you can get it expunged.

1/23/22 Feeling Much Better, Thank you!

I am happy to say that I’m out of my depression.  I think part of why that is, is because I found out that my “good friend” did not die, he just simply ghosted me.  I’m simply amazed that someone I’ve known for over 2 years would do this, but given my experiences with men in KC, I really should not be shocked.  After all, I’ve been ghosted by 3-4 other guys.  My experience being in KC has not been all that great besides good business.  But I do want to so thank all the people who contacted me to see if I was ok.  Some of this depression was obviously grief for someone who did not die.  With that grief gone, anger and shock replaced it.  But at least, it’s not depression.  I think I’m going to get a counselor.  I think that would be a really good idea for me.

1/23/22 Burglarized…Again

I was burglarized in 2019 by a methhead that I tried to help in a Social Work way.  I thought I had learned my lesson and changed things around.  I know exactly who did it.  He came over a lot and knew a lot.  Thankfully the night before I had taken most of my cash to my Ex the night before.  From now on, if you can pay me with Cash App, Venmo or Paypal, that would be preferable.  I think a lot of providers are getting burglarized because more and more are asking for the same thing.  I will still accept cash and it will go into a safety deposit box daily.  I’m also going to put video cameras in my house.  And yes, I did call the police, told him what I do (which he did not judge!) and he said he would investigate the perpetrator.

1/25/22 VIP is Back Up!

I’m missing some vids (and I’ll find them), but other than that, the VIP page is good to go!

2/10/22 Blepharospasm

If you’ve never heard of this medical condition, you’re not alone!  But when I came down with it, I sure started Googling.  Turns out that your brain controls your eyelids and this condition makes your eyes blink and twitch…uncontrollably!  I couldn’t drive and I would blink while talking to others.  The cure?  BOTOX!  Seems that Botulism freezes the muscles so 4 shots and wait 2 weeks for the full effect.  After 5 days I drove 30 minutes with barely a blink!  So now I get shots every 3-6 months.  Oh joy!

2/28/22 I’m Feeling Much Better Thank You!

I’m feeling much better from, what I am calling, my Funky February.  I say this because I was in a funk for most of February.  And looking at the rest of the world, most have also been in a funk.  The only very good thing I can say is that Covid-19 decided to back off enough not to have to wear masks!  Very good thing indeed!  I feel for Ukraine and volunteer the Proud Boys and other militias to g0 there and fight!  What a leader they have!  and Jewish to boot!

3/3/22 T I A

I think I had a TIA last night.  It stands for Transient Ischemic Attack and it’s kind of like a light stroke.  I could not talk coherently at all for about 30 minutes.   I could put words together but they meant nothing! I called 911 even though I could not really talk.  I did get my address out and that’s when I realized that I was slowly getting better.  By the time that the firemen got there (before the EMTs), I was getting more coherent by the minute.  The EMTs told me I did not have a stroke but I might want to call my doctor.  I called mu mom and she thought they might want to do a Cat scan or put me on a blood thinner.  I have never experienced anything like this and I hope it’s not a precursor to a stroke!

3/9/22 I miss what you miss

Even though I’m surrounded by “intimacy”, I still miss being touched, being held, and getting fireworks from that certain someone.  And I realize that I am not anyone’s special one but just a kind substitute for the real thing.  Maybe not too bad of a substitute!  I miss that person that will agree with me about the state of the world.  Will go out in the morning and get me an Egg sandwich.  Heck, I miss someone just being in my house with me.  I’m not that picky (which is part of my problem).  I will occasionally ask a client what they miss and they tend to look at me as if I’m crazy, but when I explain myself further, they get it.

4/1/22 Zelenskyy

Volodymir Zelenskyy will be the man of the year on Time magazine. I have no doubt in my mind that he deserves it and that he will achieve it. Who else is there? Certainly not Will Smith! When the war first started I would cry every day because I thought that Zelenskyy would be killed. I no longer think that. I also believe that Ukraine will win this war. The Russians are showing what happens when you don’t tell your troops what they’re doing. The Russians are showing that they are not the greatest military in the world. I wish the European Union would come to the aid of Ukraine and decimate Russia. Putin needs to be assassinated that’s all there is to it. He’s a Hitler, Stalin and a really evil person all the way around. How he thought he could take 150,000 troops into a country of 44 million people and beat a country with people who are sturdy and unrelenting. Not only that but they are proving themselves to be militarily superior. This war is all about one person and that person needs to be taken out. Every time Zelenskyy talks I’m simply amazed at his bravery, military skill, and the fact that he will not leave the country even if he is killed there. Russia has no defense for what they’re doing. And I think the world needs to take heed. I don’t want to go to war with Russia because they are going to shoot off nuclear missiles, but we have plenty of them too. I think if NATO went against Russia, the Kremlin would be decimated in weeks. I ask myself how did I get so lucky to be born in the United States. I think about what my neighborhood would look like if this were Ukraine. I didn’t used to believe this but there are evil people in this world and Putin is on the top of the list. Zelenskyy is Man of the Year.  And if you wonder why I put 2 y’s at the end of his name, google him.

4/2/22 Kinky

If you think I never get kinky then you should’ve been at one of my sessions last week where I was in the bathtub being peed upon by my client and then I can barely get out of the tub. He also likes to spit in my mouth and pull my hair and call me his little whore which I definitely am.  One of the reasons that were in the shower is to make sure he’s clean down there because I’m going to rim him. If you’ve never experienced this please don’t ask me to do it but it is wonderful.

4/7/22 No More Venmo

I saw a young man the other day who paid with Venmo.  Ten minutes after he left he told Venmo he never made the charge.  Venmo never asked me about it and simply gave him his money back and froze my account until I paid the money back.  Thankfully, I deposited the funds into my acc0unt immediately and they can’t take them out of my account.  To say the least, I am not going to be using Venmo anymore.

4/8/22 Menopause

I saw a man whose wife had a hysterectomy at the age of 35 and continued to have sex until the age of 40. Now that might not make you think anything is out of the ordinary but for a woman who has been through a hysterectomy, to have sex she better be on estrogen, the female hormone, or medication that helps get her wet or testosterone cream on her clit.  Even so she had to be uncomfortable. I find that a lot of men don’t understand that when women go through menopause, which happens in two weeks after you have a hysterectomy, they lose all libido. Now not all women lose complete libido. I think about 10% of us keep it.  But women can’t help the fact that the idea of having sex makes them sick and that actually having sex hurts tremendously. I bet if you knew that you wouldn’t be as gung ho to have sex with your wife. If she has sex with you once a month you can pretty much bank on it being duty sex.  She’s doing her duty. Is that what you want? For your wife to have sex with you because she feels it’s her duty? OK you know where I’m going with this so I’m just gonna go there. Get an escort, get a regular so you don’t have to worry about being busted. Find somebody that you click with and stay there. I’m not saying to get emotionally involved, I would never tell you that. In fact keep it as businesslike as you can. Your wife has her reasons, you have your reasons and the escort has her reasons. And if all three reasons come together it can be a good life. The most important part of this blog is this right here. Keep it safe.

4/12/22 What’s Up?

A man texted me “What’s Up?”.  Totally innocuous, right?

I texted him back “The sky, gas prices and inflation!” .  He got a kick out of it!

4/21/22 An Interesting Conversation

Can’t say which is better, young 18+ hard body’s or mature milf with curves and experience.. mmm that also rims and pegs, and panty teases..

The thing about the 18-year-old hard body is that that’s all you’re going to get. No kissing no touching, no going down on her and you better like condoms because she uses them for blowjobs and once she’s gotten you to come you’re out of there. Doesn’t matter that you paid for an hour and got 10 minutes. Tough decision there!

Oh and did I mention the meth pipe that she’ll be hiding waiting to get back to you after you leave? Or the boyfriend/pimp in the closet who robs you?

4/22/22 Menopause Revisited

I saw a man whose wife had a hysterectomy at the age of 35 and continued to have sex until the age of 40. Now that might not make you think anything is out of the ordinary but for a woman who has been through a hysterectomy, to have sex she better be on estrogen, the female hormone, or medication that helps get her wet or testosterone cream on her clit. Even so she had to be uncomfortable. I find that a lot too of men don’t understand that when women go through menopause, which happens in two weeks after you have a hysterectomy, they lose all libido. Now not all women lose complete libido. I think about 10% of us keep it. But women can’t help the fact that the idea of having sex makes them sick and that actually having sex hurts tremendously. I bet if you knew that you wouldn’t be as gung ho to have sex with your wife. If she has sex with you once a month you can pretty much bake on it being duty sex. She’s doing her duty. Is that what you want? For your wife to have sex with you because she feels it’s her duty? OK you know where I’m going with this so I’m just gonna go there. Get an escort, get a regular so you don’t have to worry about being busted. Find somebody that you click with and stay there. I’m not saying to get emotionally involved, I would never tell you that. In fact keep it as businesslike as you can. Your wife has her reasons, you have your reasons and the escort has her reasons. And if all three reasons come together it can be a good life. The most important part of this blog is this right here. Keep it safe.

5/7/22 Wish Me Luck

Every time I see my mother, she tells me how much money she has sitting around.  Well, now I have something she can do with it.  Since my losing weight is so all important to her, I’m going to ask her to pay for it!  $9500 for a gastric sleeves.  And that’s all inclusive.  I’ll keep you up to date on this.  I’m going to see her on the 20th and will ask her then.

5/18/22 My Birthday and St. Louis

Well it’s that time again.  Time to celebrate having lived through another year, especially with the year we’ve had!  My Birthday is tomorrow so I guess now I’ll be 55!  I’m going to St. Louis on Friday and I’m working there the 22nd through the 24th.

6/8/22 Escorts and Mental Illness

I don’t know what it is that attracts guys with mental illness to Providers but it happens all the time. I actually met two today. The first one didn’t say he was mentally ill but he had all the hallmarks of mental illness.  The second one was equally mentally ill but living in his SUV with his dog. He wanted me to go out to see his dog and I refused because I thought he would shove me into the car and kidnap me. I used intimidation to get him out of my house. He was here for an hour and left me $38. Sometime I’ll write about how I know that someone is mentally ill.

6/7/22 My Monday in Wichita 

My Monday in Wichita looked really good.  I had nine appointments set up. The first one got me up early it was an 830 appointment and lo and behold I forgot to ask for a donation and I didn’t get one. Now that should take me back six years to when I was stupid and forgot to ask for donations upfront but I really thought I had learned my lesson. Sometimes I guess we have to learn it a few times.

The second guy was a regular and I knew he would show up but he was supposed to come on Tuesday not Monday which kind of discombobulated me. He said he was going to come on Tuesday also but then he canceled. Add to that two cancellations and two no-shows and I’m pretty much livid. The final appointment was supposed to be a three hour appointment. He took me to dinner which was just OK and then when we got back to my hotel he hands me $100 bill and says I had a nice time. If I had been thinking, I would have said to him you booked me for three hours and you owe me for three hours. And I would not have gotten out of his car until he gave me The amount he owed me. Such bad behavior. And this is the guy who had a gastric bypass, lost 140 pounds and says he gained back 70 although I think he’s gained back more.   And you know how he gained all that weight back? He drinks a pint of vodka and two beers every single night. I told him he was a functional alcoholic and he did not disagree. I tell you I meet the most interesting people wherever I go.. Secretly, I was glad to not have to be intimate with this person. That’s how much he turned me off. I really really do not like alcoholics. So there you have it. Or a trip gone bad, not the first as I’m sure you know if you’ve read my blogs. But I’m not giving up! Not yet at least! I’m going to Omaha July 10 through the 12th. I put out an ad today by mistake and I started getting phone calls. I really hope Omaha works out.

6/9/22 Amy Taylor

It isn’t often that I write about other Providers, but I couldn’t resist.  She is the first bombshell 45-year-old woman I have seen in a long time.  And she’s only $2000 per half hour!  That’s $4000 an hour.  She better be on someone’s bucket list for them to shell out that much.  She is counting on a multi-millionaire who has money to burn.  And of course she has no hometown because she is constantly traveling.  I just think to myself “what a life!”.  And is any woman worth $2000 for 30 minutes?

6/21/22 1st Visit with my Surgeon

It couldn’t have gone better.  They did an EEG which was fine and I asked the surgeon 20 questions and got excellent answers.  The next step is meeting with the psychologist and dietician.  I will most likely have this done in mid August and be off work for 2 weeks.

6/21/22 The decision to get a gastric bypass

At one time in my life until I was 30, I weighed 120 pounds, was a size 6 and enjoyed good fitness by mostly playing outside. When I turned 30 I was put on 200 mg of Zoloft which if you know anything about Zoloft you know that it makes you gain weight.  It also helps a lot if you’re a depressive like I was. When they put me on this much Zoloft I ballooned 60 pounds in a matter of months. I couldn’t get enough sweet stuff and I never had to diet so I didn’t and now you get to see the results. And of course I’ve gained more weight over the years. That’s kind of typical.  But I want to be thin again. I don’t expect to be 120 pounds but it would be nice to lose 100 pounds and be in my 130s.The doctor says I’ll lose 80 to 90 pounds which I would be happy with but I’m gonna try for 100. I already have ideas of what I’m gonna eat when I’m able to eat. I’m also trying out protein shakes so if you know of a good one let me know. I’m so looking forward to losing weight, getting healthy And an eventual tummy tuck!

7/8/22 More on my Gastric Bypass

I’m having it done on August 22, so don’t expect to see me until middle of September.  I’m nervous and excited, which, to me, makes sense.  I want to lose 100 pounds and I think I can accomplish this.  But I also worry that I won’t be able to do it.  That I’ll want to cheat.  And then, my therapist reminds me that I’m not going to want to eat, that I’m not going to be hungry.  And having done Keto twice, I know how food becomes more about sustenance and less about cravings. And I plan to start working out and that will help with staying on track. 

7/16/22 Omaha Day 1

All I can say is how rude. I had six appointments set and four no showed and two canceled.  I always say what goes around comes around but I’m starting to wonder because lately what’s coming around me is pretty shitty. And I’m getting tired of it. If tomorrow is not a really great day here, I’m probably not gonna come back.. Some of them I’m pretty sure made the appointment with me and no showed on purpose. One guy told me that I had canceled on him a time before because my son had been in an accident. And up until he did not show up we were talking the whole time. So he did this on purpose.  I don’t need to drive 2 1/2 hours spend $250 on a hotel and God knows how much on gas only to see two people in one day half hour appointments. Does anybody see a pattern here?

7/16/22 Omaha 2nd day

Pretty much the same as the first day. I experienced something for about the first time. I asked a man to wear a condom and he didn’t. I think back to the encounter and I should have done more. He had just had sex a week before with an escort and that’s the last thing I want to hear. He was an older gentleman but I could tell that he frequented escorts a lot. I’m going to see my doctor on Thursday of this week and have a complete panel done to make sure I’m clean. Other than that, it’s been the same old same old. People don’t show up, People cancel at the last minute and are basically rude. But then I think, they don’t even know me and I don’t know them and that’s probably why traveling doesn’t work for me. It feels rushed, as you all know I like to get to know people and I’m not able to do that here. Not only am I not coming back to Omaha but I am seriously considering not traveling whatsoever. At this time it’s not worth the gas, it’s not worth the hotel room and the meals. And most of all the frustration.

8/10/22 No Blogs

I know you might think that I must be depressed because I’m not writing as much, but the real truth is that I just haven’t had anything to say.  And I’m not going to make things up just to have something to blog!  Now for my 1st really good blog in some time.

8/10/22 Getting My Haircut!

OMG!  I went to Great Clips to get my hair cut and everything is going well.  Until….the store manager starts to lay in about Trump and conspiracy theories and Hunter Biden…You get my drift?  Twenty minutes of non-stop Trumpster.  She had no idea who she was talking to.  And I’m not going to go more into what she said because I know I have diehard Republicans and diehard Democrats who read my blogs.  WHICH IS EXACTLY MY POINT!  If you don’t know who you’re talking to, don’t talk about politics or religion.  

As soon as I got home, I called Great Clips National and they said they would have the owner of the store call me.  Well the general manager (I’m thinking of many stores) got back with me and apologized up and down the block.  She would be talking with this “manager” to make sure she knows that this behavior is not acceptable.  I’m sitting there listening to this lady spew and all I can think is OMG!

8/10/22 St. Louis

I went to St. Louis on the premise that I would be doing a bookkeeping audit on Sunday through Tuesday.  That way I would be able to see my Mom and sisters.  I met a guy who wanted to take me out, so we went to a Mexican restaurant and it became apparent that really what he wanted was a free session. My Sunday was good, Monday even better and Tuesday eh.  I plan to go there every other month.

8/10/22 NEW POLICY

I am no longer doing anything full service without protection. Better to be safe than sorry!

9/15/22 Gastric Bypass #4

It’s only been 3 weeks and I’m still nauseated most of the time.  I’ve lost 13 pounds and I think I look worse.  Maybe I’ll feel better in 4 months!  I’m back to working and doing well with that.  If I had known a bunch of different information, would I still have done this?  Too late for regrets!

9/8/22 Gastric Bypass #3

I don’t know quite how to say this but I think a lot of you know that I am bipolar and what happened was that I kind of went into a Lithium Toxicity which landed me in the hospital.  KC Bariatrics should have prepared me for this.   Sometime I’ll delineate why you should not go to KC Bariatrics or NKCH.

7 days later, the Hospitalist prescribes me a new medication that just happens to cost $1500 per month.  Not only did he not get pre-authorization through my insurance, but he did no research about the cost of this med.  And then, because he works for the Hospital, once you are discharged, he can no longer talk to you.  So here, I am.  No meds besides the ones I had and no provider. Un-fucking believable.

8/31/22 Gastric Bypass #2

Sometimes I think if I could take this all back I would. But I know that’s not an option and I know that this too shall pass. I think the worst of it is nausea and having so many so few choices but I’m only in week two. I think that if I get through week eight I’ll have a lot more choices and I’ll start to feeling better. But don’t let me fool you into thinking this is easy. I had major surgery and it’s very difficult and I dare say I am a bitch. Probably good thing that you aren’t seeing me right now. I don’t think I would be much company. OK now the stats. I started at 240 and I’m at 223.5. if I didn’t have that to go on I’d be pretty pissed by now. I’m looking at coming back to work in one week if my stomach it.

8/25/22 Gastric Bypass #1

I survived and that’s pretty much all I can say. In the first place I slept two days after surgery. Just say the very least that has never happened to me. Makes me think that the anesthesiologist did not know what he was doing. Then they wouldn’t give me the pain medication I have asked for because the anesthesia went so bad. I’m not sure I’ve experienced this level of pain and nausea ever. OK maybe when I had kids but certainly not since then. And of course I couldn’t take the pain medication because it made me sick. Today is day three and I’m feeling better. I actually get to start eating very light things. And can I just say that you will never take a sip of anything because if you don’t take a sip you are sick to your stomach. The good part is that I can have almost anything just very small portions. And did I mention that I started at 240 and today I was 228. that will be my joy.

9/25/22 Negativity

A devoted client who reads all of my blogs told me that lately my blogs have been negative.  I realize this and sometimes life throws you a curve ball and other times you get a windfall.  Right now, things seem pretty bleak.  I spent 8 days in the hospital and 22 out of the last 30 days in bed.  Or with my sisters.  So I have not been working like usual.  I’m also off my psych meds and that impacts how I feel tremendously.  You know me, the cat that lands on her feet every and I will again!


I never thought I would put this out there, but I  truly do not know how I’m going to pay my rent this month.  I don’t live in a high rent district but I’m not in a motel either. And I think you appreciate where I live.  My rent is about $1000.   This is 10 visits.  You would think that would be no big deal, but lately work is very slow.  I was going to do Lyft to supplement, but if you’ve read my blogs, you know that driving right now is very difficult for me and I’m putting my Lyft clients at risk.  Not good.  If you’ve been thinking of seeing me, please do.  I’ve lost over 20 pounds so far and it shows.  I’d like you to see it!

9/30/22 OMG I Almost threw up!

OK part of this was my fault because I had just eaten before he got here but he weighs well over 400 pounds and let me just say that when you do things the regular way his stomach was on my bypass and the results got put in the toilet. I have to block him and delete him because he can’t come any other way and I can’t do that with him. Come to think of it I can’t do that with anybody who’s well overweight. Just one more reason that I’m so happy with my gastric bypass. At least work has picked up.

10/13/22  Gastric Bypass #6: The good the bad and the ugly of gastric bypass

Of course, the best part of gastric bypass is losing weight. This is also the main reason for having a gastric bypass along with diminishing problems with comorbidity issues such as diabetes and high blood pressure.  The fact that the weight loss is fairly quick also makes a gastric bypass look pretty good.

But, people don’t talk about the downside of having gastric bypass. Probably most bothersome is the fact that you will never eat more than four or five bites of food at any one sitting. Also is the fact that you can’t drink water 30 minutes before and 30 minutes after a meal including the meal.  This makes it near impossible to get 64 ounces of water in each day. And then you put on top of that the fact that you can only sip the water, you cannot drink it normally makes it even more difficult. I’ll be honest. Besides my coffee in the morning I may get 16 to 32 ounces of water in me a day yet I do not feel dehydrated in the least. Did I mention the fact that you can only eat 4 to 5 bites at a time? And you should chew your food 30 times before swallowing? Well what I didn’t mention is that if you eat one more bite then you should, you will be nauseated and you may very well throw up. Interestingly enough, when you do throw up nothing much comes up except a lot of gastric juices. Speaking of gastric juices, I no longer have reflux and I no longer take my Prilosec. Along with that medication I’m hoping to get rid of my high blood pressure medication, my NSAID for my knees and knee pain in and of itself. One of two things will happen to my knees once I lose all the weight I can.  Either the weight loss will take so much pressure off of them that they won’t hurt anymore or I’ll be able to have a knee replacement because I’m at a weight where they will perform the surgery.

I had my gastric bypass done at KC bariatrics and I would not recommend them to anybody. They are a facility that does more of these procedures than any other facility in the United States and it feels like an assembly line. I got very little support either before or after the surgery and had to look for my own dietitian because theirs was inept to say the least.  On top of that, I could not get physical therapy through them because I was a self-pay and not a pay through insurance. People with insurance can get physical therapy but if you pay $16,000 you can’t get physical therapy. This is all about money because physical therapy will be covered by insurance so they don’t have to pay for it. I think just the fact that I shelled out $16,000 to have this done should qualify me for getting physical therapy. This is another service that I will be getting a referral for. KC bariatrics told me very little about how my life would change. About the things that I would have to do to lose weight and maintain the weight loss. They really dropped the ball though after the surgery. They knew all the medication I was on and yet never talked to me about my lithium which I almost died from because the level was four times higher than I needed and I went into toxemia. There are plenty of places to get a gastric bypass and I would not suggest KC bariatrics.

It hasn’t even been two months and I know that I’m bitching about what I’m going through but I wish that I had read more about the changes and complications that GB can cause. Ask me in two months if I’m happy that I have this. I don’t think my attitude will change much but maybe I’ll be a little bit more grateful and appreciative of the weight I’ve lost. In two more months you’ll really be able to see the new me and it will help a lot to hear from others how good I look. I’m not usually a very vain person but when you spend $16,000 to lose weight it helps to have people notice.

10/20/22 My Jackie’s Gone

I had to put Jackie, my beloved cat, down at 9:30 am this morning.  She had liver failure that could not have been helped and she was no longer drinking, eating or grooming herself.  I believe in Karma and I can see that it was her time to go.  Doesn’t make it any easier to say goodbye, but at least she’s not in pain.  

10/20/22 Poundage

I’ve lost 30 pounds in the first 2 months.  And best of all, have not thrown up in a week!  I also have figured out that sausage and I do not like each other!

10/25/22 Antisemitism

I will tell you this, with the state of affairs as they are in this country, it wouldn’t surprise me if I stopped telling people that I was Jewish. I mean, you never know who you’re with, what they believe or what they’re carrying. Now really, do you think I really believe this?  Do you really think I think I’m gonna be hurt because I’m Jewish? No I don’t and maybe I am looking through rose-colored glasses but this is not 1939. it seems to me that nowadays, any minority group is fodder for radical right wing terrorists. Skinheads and neo-Nazis have been around for a long time. They’re just showing themselves more now that it Is OK to do so.  Jews have been persecuted since the beginning of time. There’s nothing new going on that hasn’t been done many many times before and yet we still thrive as a community and culture. I may be secular but I’m still a Jew and if I think that your knowing that I’m Jewish will help a situation or a story I will tell you. Otherwise, there’s really no reason to.

10/25/22 My paid vacation

When a 72-year-old man asked me to go in his luxury fifth wheel to Bull Shoals lake/White River, I jumped at the opportunity. Anybody who knows me, knows I have a love of RVs and I hope to own a Model C one day. I had never been in a camper before. Plus I would be remunerated nicely. But what I didn’t realize was that he was half deaf and half the time he would hear me and still say “what?”. It was a bad habit of his that drove me crazy. Very nice man, not the brightest I’ve ever met, but very successful at what he’s done and in better shape at 72 then I am at 55 (when will I stop lying about my age?).  The Forest River Riverstone Legacy was a beautiful and luxurious 42 foot fifth wheel and I was very happy that he invited me to go with him. I think the next time I do this I’ll get to know the person a little bit better though.

11/1/22 My Rates Revisited

I think I’m the cheapest escort in Kansas City and I think what bothers me the most is to think that people come to see me because of it. My last client balked at having to use a condom and yet let me know that he had used one with his last escort who was a $500 46-year-old ex porn star.  To say the least I was pissed. So much so that I showed him the door. And then I decided that I’m raising my rates. Granted I don’t have the balls to raise them too much as I have kept them low so I could see more people. But if guys are coming to me because I’m so low then I don’t wanna be known as an escort who is cheap.

11/16/22 Business Sucks!

Maybe the reason I have not blogged in 2 weeks is because I have nothing good to say and I hate to sound like a broken record.  I don’t think it’s because I raised my rates for newbies.  Maybe it’s the recession that we’re not really in.  Maybe the cold weather.  But for whatever reason, things have been really slow.  Of course, I really can’t complain because even in my slowest week this year, I still made more than most any ordinary job I could qualify for!  One good thing?  I no longer cry over spilled milk or people not calling.  It is what it is…

11/16/22 Catie

Well, I made the leap and got a new kitten who is not really a kitten but six months old and she and I are bonding very well together. Please note that this does not take away from my grief over Jackie and in fact, at times I feel more grief because I’ve chosen someone new. Catie is simply adorable!  And very chill. She didn’t cry at all when I took her home in the cat carrier and Jackie would’ve had a fit. I will not make the same mistake twice. This cat will be an indoor cat only and, when I leave town, I will have someone staying with her. I have come to accept the thought that Jackie got into something outside that made her sick. Maybe it was a mouse who had poison in it. I will never know, but I know now what I did wrong. I don’t blame myself because it was ignorance on my part. I think I thought she would live until 19, but I guess that was just not in the cards. If Catie is half the cat the Jackie was, I’ll be very happy. She really is a breath of fresh air.

11/25/22 Stepmother

Now usually if I’m talking about a stepmother it’s because some 24-year-old has asked me to roleplay her. But in this case I got a call from a stepmother wanting a service provided for her 19-year-old stepson. At first I denied her just based on his age, but then I thought about it and I thought that everybody has a price so I raised my price substantially and she agreed. She said to me that he knows what he’s doing and I asked how she knew that. Yeah, then I found out that she was on vacation with him.. And she has been with him in the biblical sense. I don’t know if this is a scam or a hoax but if he shows up I’ll take care of him.  You know, I try not to judge people being that I’m a social worker. I learned in social work school that different doesn’t mean deficient. This is definitely one of those times that things are definitely different.

Update: She nor he never called back again. It was probably all a hoax.

11/29/22 Chapter 1, Paragraph 1

I left the room we were in and went to my bathroom so I could cry my eyes out. What had I gotten myself into? This was my first foray into escorting and I was completely overwhelmed. This was not my element, this was not me but when you don’t have a job and your prospects are little to none you do what you have to do. And I had decided I was going to be an escort. I was 54 years old, had worked as a social worker most of my life and other than this, I had no game. I had nowhere to turn unless I wanted a $24,000 job. The last social work job I had had paid $36,000 and that was considered a lot. But every month at the end of the month I had to get a payday loan just to get me over the hump of being paid on the first. It was a miserable life. The work was horrible stressful, the pay was not enough and nobody really cared how well you did your job.

12/1/22 On Having A New Kitten

OMG! If she’s not racing around the house and playing with her balls that have a little jingles in them, she’s fast asleep by my side. I’m trying to get her to sleep with me at night, but that isn’t working so far. After all she is a nocturnal animal , and she displays this at every turn. She’s absolutely adorable.  And, being an orange cat, she is somewhat different because most orange cats are male! But make no doubt, she is my new companion and I’m very glad to have her.

12/1/22 Chapter 1, Paragraph 2

I dried my eyes and I went back in the room and I told my client to turn over on his stomach and I gave him what would become known as my “afterglow”. It was basically a wonderful back tickle. I had been doing these since I was five years old.  Being very much the giver as opposed to a taker, I was well-suited for my new occupation. I relished giving pleasure. But what made me so successful had a lot to do with my social work skills. I can talk to anyone, I can pull out information from a person and use that to help them. Now granted, well over half of the clients I had could care less about what I had to say. But there was another half that often asked me for advice and here’s where my therapy skills were helpful. Once I started tickling my clients back I calmed down.  It may not even have been the first time that I cried my eyes out but it certainly would not be the last time. Being an escort introduces you to a world of scams, getting ripped off, rude clientele, getting stiffed, and pretty much any negative thing you can think of. But that’s the bad side. The good side is that you make money like you never have. You meet people that are interesting and fun and like-minded. You get to go to places that you wouldn’t have gone to.  There’s a whole world out there that’s ripe for the picking if you can just keep yourself out of trouble. Trouble? Cops are superb when it comes to busting escorts. You would think with it just being a misdemeanor that they would have more pressing things to do but I think it’s inevitable that if you’re an escort, you’re going to be busted at least once. I’ve seen a lot of women come and go and I always wondered if they left because they had been busted. I’ve learned so many things along the way to keep myself safe but every time I talk to a potential client I have to be cognizant that he could be a cop. I think the biggest misnomer about cops is that they have to tell you that they’re a cop if you ask them. This couldn’t be further from the truth. They don’t have to tell you anything and especially if they’re in pursuit of a crime they don’t have to tell you they’re a cop and they won’t. So you have to assume that every man you talk to is a cop. When I first started out, I met with a man who would go by the term “hobbyist”. This is someone who sees a lot of escorts and will pay high dollars for them. He told me that money went with looks.  So I started my donations at 60 for a half hour and 100 for an hour. This was also in Topeka Kansas which is very blue-collar and the guys there weren’t going to pay very much. Even at these rates I doubled my social work income that first year.  The second year I increased my donations to 75/125 and Topeka basically ghosted me. So I started looking into moving to Kansas City and I found that I could raise my rates substantially and still do very well. I am now at 100 for a half hour and 180 for an hour. Basically double what I started out. My rates are not based on looks. They are based on my personality, the experience I give you when you come see me, and also advice given to me from other hobbyist. To an extent, that first hobbyist that told me that money goes with looks was not completely incorrect. But I offer an experience that very few others offer or even care. A lot of what I do is customer service. A lot of what I did as a social worker was customer service. Go figure. If you take care of someone above and beyond what others are doing you’re going to get repeat customers and that’s what I have. I now make over $100,000 a year And I work for it

12/9/22 Chapter 1, Paragraph 3

I fairly quickly found my routine of waking up early so that I could get ready for the day. When I first started out I would make appointments in the future but I quickly learned that that was not such a good idea because people just didn’t show up. That has to be the worst part of being an escort.  Guys just don’t necessarily feel the need to let you know that they’re not going to be there. I find it very rude and anybody who doesn’t show up gets banned for life! At my prices of 60/100 I was busy to say the least.  Absolutely no one ever said to me maybe you should increase your rates. I think Topeka was just so happy to have an escort and they didn’t want to ruin a good thing. I was naïve enough to not know that my rates were so low. So I was busy most of the day and this pleased me because as a social worker I was surrounded by people and interacting with clients and cohorts. So I was used to having company. I made the decision very early on that I was going to tell no one about what I do.  The family that I came from would never understand and the family that I made I didn’t want them to know what their mother was doing. So yes there was shame involved

12/10/22 Here’s to those guys

Here’s to those guys that think they can make an appointment for a half hour out and show up an hour and a half out. Here’s to those guys that make an appointment, say really nice things about you, and then never show up. Here’s to my son who’s almost 25 and doesn’t have a job and doesn’t care to get a job but just wants to sponge off me . Here’s to the 20-somethings that never show up and here’s to all the men who have ever sold snake oil in one form or another. It seems to me that since Man became civilized, he figured out how to scam another man and quite frankly, I’m sick of it, I’m sick of all the scams, shams and bullshit that goes on. I want to go back to the 1950s before any of this kind of bullshit was thought of. But then I wouldn’t be doing what I’m doing which, on many occasions, I think is not a bad thing.  Can you tell I’m pissed? This is the perfect time to smoke a bowl! And if you don’t know what I’m talking about, all the better. A friend just reminded me of this song by Twisted Sister called “we’re not gonna take it anymore”. Listen to it because it’s exactly how I feel.

Update: I realize that the blog I just wrote was very angry, and sometimes I feel very angry, but at the same time, I am grateful for what I have, and the friends that I have and my family. I’m not always this angry, but I wrote this blog on a day where I was and I’m not going to take it away , just because it’s an angry blog. I hope you realize that I don’t always write angry blogs, but at times there are reasons to let you know how I feel. I try to be as transparent for you as I can. And at times, I will delete a post that I put out, because I no longer agreed with it. I appreciate my readership.

12/19/22 Gastric Bypass #7

I have now lost 47 pounds and I have been working my upper arms and my thighs pretty much from the get-go. I noticed that I’m stronger in both my arms and my legs. I’m not doing anything for my abdomen as that will get a tummy tuck. I have a C-section tummy, which means that you really can’t tone it up. I’m finally used to what I can eat and to tell you the truth I could eat better or more keto.  But, I figure if I’m eating 600 cal a day I’m going to lose weight, doesn’t matter really what I eat. I’ve been off sugar since before. I had the operation and that’s going well. I should be walking, but in this weather, there ain’t no way! I’m happy with my body and I’m used to how I have to eat and what I can and can’t eat. Would I do it again? Definitely not with the company I did it with.  They never followed up with me after the surgery whatsoever. They did a good operation and that’s that. Most of my education has come from trial and error.  And you really should come and see the new me!

12/31/22 New Years Resolutions

  1. To continue losing weight and get down to 100 pounds off.

  2. To continue making new friends.

  3. To hopefully meet someone to be in a relationship with.

  4. To work on getting another job so that I don’t have to rely on escorting as much.

  5. To start an exercise program.

1/3/23 Should I Be Concerned or Flattered?

Someone in St. Louis is using my pictures on a list crawler ad and they put like cute little sayings with them. Of course it’s a different phone number but I certainly don’t want anyone in St. Louis thinking this is me. I’ll be doing new pictures this week.

Take a Look at My Newest Pics in my Gallery 5/27/23

6/1/23 Bad People

I really do believe that bad people attract bad people and I think that we can all look at our past and present and say yes, we know a bad person who have attracted bad people. But having been a masters of social work and a therapist for 10 years I know bad people and I know good people . And I am here to say that this occupation I am in, is full of bad people. Now that may only be 10% of the people out there but when you consider that accountants probably only know one percent bad people 10% is a lot. And it’s funny, I just realized the other day that I didn’t start being burglarized and robbed until I moved to this house up north. I never had a problem in my Raytown house except for my male roommate stealing 70 pieces of lingerie. Go figure. That was actually my first foray into being robbed and it felt horrible. And it still feels horrible. And all I want to do is just cry my eyes out and I realize that that’s not going to change anything. So then I get to work. I have to get a new drivers license probably a new birth certificate, a new debit card, some money to put in the bank and hopefully over time, I will replace the items that have been stolen. But I’ll tell you this again and again. It’s black guys doing this. And it’s probably only 1% of black guys doing this which is a shame for all the other nice black guys who get the blame.  But for the life of me, I have never had an Indian, a Mexican, a white man, an Asian or a native American do this to me. The only one person who was not black, was a meth head that I was trying to help as a social worker. I hope to God I’ve learned my lesson by now. And that goes for everything. Ha ha!

5/31/23 Exactly What I have had Stolen from me in the past 7 years

If I had known how much of my belongings would be stolen, burglarized, taken directly from me, and otherwise absconded from me, I might have thought twice about being a Compa.nion!  Ok, maybe not, but here’s a list for you to either shake your head along with me or laugh (but please, keep that to yourself).

  1. Laptop

  2. Iphone 11

  3. Scale

  4. At least $3000

  5. My wallet twice

  6. My bluetooth speakers (2)

  7. All of my paraphernalia

  8. Oodles of marijuana

  9. Bic Lighters

  10. Everything tkat was taken out of my car that could be including my spare.

  11. All of my precious rings that were easily worth $10,000.  (I think my ex roommate did this).

  12. 70 Lingerie outfits (taken by a man no less).

  13. My pride, my self-esteem, feeling stupid, and learning a heck of a lot about who to let into your house and not ever leaving them alone.

5/29/23 Escorts thought

And let me just say this about escorts if I haven’t said it before. The better you know an escort, the better you feel being with her and the more she can do for you that you need done for yourself and not by yourself.


Phew!  I finally am starting to feel like I have some modicum of control over my life. I have taken 200 pictures and put probably about 100 up on the site and take a look at my smile and my face because I don’t think I’ve ever been prettier. And that’s funny because just a week ago I was saying that I was uglier. I’m not uglier and those pictures came out really well. Tell me about your wife because I know you need to. And thank you for your support. Now I will say the guy that came forward and really helped me gave me $250 it was for a session but it was a lot of money and I was able to buy a phone and have $150 in the bank . It felt better than being broke. 

5/27/23 Older professional in St. Louis 11th through 14th

Hello from the older professional in Kansas City. I will be coming to St. Louis June 11 through the 14th. I will be staying on the southside close to the intersection of two major highways in a very nice hotel. This time around you need to make an appointment if you want to see me and if you keep this appointment I’m going to give you $20 back. Think of it as an incentive to show up. That’s probably the biggest complaint that escorts have of their clients. They don’t show up! I want you to show up and I want to meet you and I want to have a good time with you and Lord knows I’ll keep you for the entire time and hopefully be everything you wanted me to be. My donations are 120 for a half hour and 200 for an hour. I do not see boys under 30 and I do not see any AA/black/Native whatever I don’t see black guys. Five robberies have convinced me of this. But I try to have a good attitude and I just lost 75 pounds so you might want to check me out is my personal website and you might want to look at it.



5/19/23 Birthday (God not again)

Gosh, what a whirlwind of hospitals and ambulances this fall/winter has been.  I think I can finally say, I am starting to make my comeback and it may look different than before.  But sometimes, that can be a good thing.  I may be remaking myself. 

Either way, if you see this blog, drop me a line!  I lost all my contacts so it would be nice of you to let me know you are still around! If you want to hear the gruesome details of what all I went  through (and survived 3 times) let me know…


I hate to chance it!!

I started the day with my favorite client.  And then client #2, Black Boy, comes in trying to make me believe that I’ve met him before and all he was really there to do was rob me of my beloved Iphone and my wallet.  I’m so fucking done with Black boys.  Don’t even show up at my door!  If you all knew what all I’ve been through, you would have told me to rid my life of them a long time ago.  So, I have no phone, no driver’s license, another new debit…great.  Not even a way to show you what 75 pounds thinner looks like!

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4/9/23  Finally!!

Yes, I’m still alive and kicking and thinking about my future and my retirement, if there is one.I can’t tell you how many people I’ve talked to who said that they’ll work until they die because they can’t afford to retire. My take on retirement is this. I think I vary from most people in that I don’t think I’m going to live at the same level that I’ve lived in my life. I can see myself having to have a roommate getting a two bedroom two bath, I would love to find someone to go RVing with me. I think that would be a great adventure. But again will I be able to afford gas? Will I be able to control the vehicle? Lotta questions.

I once said that I would not end this blog until I have to. Did I take a month off because I thought I had to? Yes and no. I guess we all have our secrets and that will be one of mine. So, to bring you up-to-date, my cat CATIE turned one today and she’s still pretty small so I’m hoping she stays small.She has become much more loving, and I usually wake up in the morning with her staring me down. She’s absolutely adorable almost looks like a pink cat. And when I get down on the floor and I put my arms out she comes and runs into them. Very cute.

I am planning very soon to start looking into insurance adjusting.I had looked into this in 2018. This would not be catastrophic adjusting but rather mostly cars or RVs or bodily injury. I have a really good client who’s a high-level adjuster and he’s a bevy of information. He’s also gone for four months at a time.

So I did a really stupid thing and I feel compelled to find some absolution to my complete faux pas. I got a new phone number and I put it on my ads and then I forgot to answer the people calling that ad. How stupid is that? When I moved from iPhone 6s Plus to an iPhone 11 my burner apps did not come with me and as is the case, I forgot about them. I was looking through things and I stumbled across these phone lines and, oh my God, there were pages of phone calls and texts that I didn’t get because I wasn’t trying to. And then I wonder why I had an $800 week! Talk about feeling stupid. I guess we all have our moments, but I just seem to have more than most people. I will say this, though. I learn from my mistakes, and this transition from one phone to another, has really rattled me and made me be more patient and learn to ask for help when I just can’t understand how something works.  

So if I became an adjuster, I would still see the people that are my clients. I think I would like that. To have a job and to also have a clientele.When I lived in Topeka, and they knew I was moving to Kansas City, the guys there just completely ignored me, which made me believe that I was doing the right thing. And, of course, I was. And I want everyone to know who is reading this that I will always, unless it goes out of business, I will always have my 785 number but as of this month I won’t be using it.So when I started realizing that I wasn’t getting my phone calls I went back to my 785 number and lo and behold I was inundated. It’s a lot more fun to see four guys in a day versus zero.I think, for an escort, there can’t be anything more degrading than sitting around all day long trying to find things to do because you’re not going to see anybody.

So I’ve lost 75 pounds and I want to get five more off before May 19 which is my birthday. Of course, I’m going to St. Louis for my birthday and I’m staying there for a few days.

What more can I say? Except for the fact that I was hospitalized twice since my gastric Bypass, because my lithium was sky high. I tell you, people don’t think much of Topeka, but I lived there for 27 years and I had the best medical care I’ve had since leaving St. Louis and even getting that level of care in Kansas City has been a struggle. But, I think I found my advocate. She’s a neurologist, somewhat young and very proactive. Because of my memory issues, my kids have wanted me to go through a series of tests to rule out early onset, dementia, and early onset Alzheimer’s. I’m happy to say that I have been ruled out for early onset Alzheimer’s, but the testing for dementia is much more robust and lasts four hours. I’ll also be getting a CAT scan and an MRI. I really like this neurologist. She is verymuch with it. When she found out who my PCP was, she said, oh God, you can’t stay with her. She’s awful! (and actually, she really is horrible). So I’m getting a new PCP I’ve got a neurologist. Now I’m gonna have a psychiatrist who will get me off of lithium which is a big problem for me. Never used to be but lately and probably because of my gastric bypass controlling my lithium has been difficult. I don’t know what she plans on moving me over to but I have an open mind. It’s scary to think that I have early onset dementia but it’s scarier to think that I have it and I don’t know I have it.

On that note, I quit smoking pot. 50% of the people I know who get high swear that it doesn’t mess with their memory, but the other 50% are not so sure. And I wasn’t so sure. So in true Patty form, I quit. Just like that overnight. I’ve got to tell you, it’s great being a non-addictive personality. When I quit smoking cigarettes, I just threw the pack away. It’s a lot easier not getting addicted in the first place. I think you also know that I’ve had trouble with my eyes and this neurologist put me on a medication that works. It also makes me nearsightedness, but I can get a pair glasses for that.

Thank God no more Botox shots. You cannot imagine how painful a needle is going above your eyebrow and under your eyelids. And women pay $500-$1000 to get this done cosmetically.Screw that! And the doctor who does the Botox is very kind and nice and always wants his interns to take a time with me, the guinea pig! I don’t like being a guinea pig and I really don’t like these Botox shots.

Did I mention that I’ve lost 75 pounds? And actually it’s been easy because you can only eat four bites at a time. So when you feel sick to your stomach you don’t want to eat. That’s why all those Biologics are taking 60-70 pounds off.Because they make you nauseous. In fact they’re starting to prescribe Ozempic for weight loss, but you can’t find it because everybody’s buying it up! And really I don’t need it because the gastric bypass is working. If you haven’t seen me in six months, just looking at me is really some thing.

OK, I promise promise promise to take some pictures of me and post them on the website, the transformation is nothing short of a miracle. I have about 25 pounds to go, not that that’s written in stone but the doctor didn’t think I’d lose over 90 pounds anyway and I’m shooting for 100. I noticed that my dating repertoire is increasing as I decrease! I’ll end this blog with a story about my mother, who always cracks me up.

She was in the hospital for pneumonia, and they found an aortic aneurysm, a very small one but still it’s there. My mother who has designed her life the way she wanted it, loves the idea of dying of an aneurysm. You’re there one minute. You’re gone the next. I can see the value in that, but I don’t want her to leave under any circumstances and I’m sure many of you have been through that or will go through that. I have been blessed that my father was 90 when he died and my mom is 92. So this aneurysm is very small and they’re gonna watch it every three months but she’s not gonna have the surgery that she needs to have, and that’s her way of saying I’m checking out! Well, I think I’ve written enough for now. If something truly remarkable comes along and I just feel the need to blog I’ll let you know. And I’ll probably spend some time tomorrow on my website, which has once again been hacked into. At least this time the hackers really didn’t know what they were doing so it was pretty easy to back it up and get it going but I need to work on it. Every time someone tells me that they read my blogs or they wonder when I’m going to do another blog and they were you know looking at my website waiting, it makes me feel so good. That I could import some of my so-called wisdom your way. It makes me feel very gratified and maybe just a little bit important. I think it has to do with the fact that I pour myself out to you on a fairly regular basis. And I don’t want to run this into the ground but since I’ve been having issues with my memory, there are a lot of times that I’ll be telling a story and completely forget what I was talking about halfway into it so if I want to blog I have to get it out on paper.As many of you know, I dictate my blogs and that is truly the easiest way for me. I’ll keep you up-to-date on my miscellaneous medical maladies. Oh that’s got a good sound to it.

Dear readers, please don’t leave me and even if I don’t blog for a month I am thinking about it daily. So thank you for reading me and your comments. And know that I’m thinking of you too.

3/23 DestitutiIon

I knew that one day this would come.  I actually dreadded it.  You see I love what I do and I’m good at it.  I don’t usually give up this easily.  But I think it’s come to that point in my life that I need to step away.  You’re wondering where this all came from.  That’s an easy answer.  I simply do not have money.  I’ve gotten money from my best friends and from my mother.  I’m luckier than most because they love me enough to give me money.  We’re talking $2300, and I truly do not know how I will pay them back.  My mother has already told me to not worry about paying her back.

My dear sister is looking into me being traveling bookkeeping!  What a hoot!  If my business would start to pick up, we wouldn’t have such talk.  Imagine me traveling as a Bookkeeper! And even though I have a very loving and giving mother, I can’t keep on doing what I do.  I can’t keep taking and taking.

I’ve taken enough.


2/3/23 Gastric Bypass #8

Well, I’m finally to the point where I know what foods I can’t eat, I know what foods are best for me to eat and I’ve lost 57 pounds. And I’m starting to date.

1/27/23 Sexting

Quite by mistake, I found out something about myself that I never knew. I actually excel at Sexting. I still won’t do video chats and I think most of them are scams anyway, but if anybody wants to take me up on my Sexting skills, I think you’ll find that I am fairly proficient . And I like it too. I think my rates for this will be $30 for 15 minutes. Just long enough.

1/25/23 Chapter 2, Paragraph 1

Now I have nothing against women who are escorts but there is shame involved. When you are raised in a wealthy family and you go to the best schools, graduate with a masters in social work, you never really think you’ll ever become an escort. Oh sure, I knew about Xavier Hollander but knowing her name and that she was the Happy Hooker was about all I knew. I think if my original family found out, they would disown me. I know that any family member will try to get me to stop.  And it’s not like I wouldn’t like to stop but how can you start making over $100,000 a year? Especially when all the money from your family dried up and you are pretty much left on your own. All you would have to do is Google my phone number but obviously nobody has or if they have, they haven’t told me.

1/16/23 Alone Again Naturally

I, in recent weeks, have come to realize that I will probably be alone for the rest of my life. I think there are several reasons for this and the biggest reason is me. I don’t think I really want to be with someone full-time. I would be great for like a truck driver. If I thought truck drivers were any good at all , unfortunately I’ve had a few run-ins. I also think that I really enjoy my own company, way more so than most other people. I’m so set in my own ways that I don’t think I could give up how I do things. I’ve started seeing somebody but I can tell you 10 cons and may be 4 pros for this guy. Why do I continue to see him? I suppose because I get bored and lonely. But when I’m done with him, I want him gone.

1/14/23 My Mother Updated

I have told you about my mother in posts along the way, but the news I have is not good. She has an aortic anyerism that has not burst, but is on its way to and she can have an operation but at 92, she’s thinking that this is a sure way out , a quick way out and on her own terms. I don’t feel ready to have her gone, but I will never feel ready to have her gone. That being said, my sisters didn’t even bother to tell me she was in the hospital.

Update: my mother is back at home and doing very well but she is still on oxygen and it will take her time to gain her strength back. I’m going to see her for her birthday in mid February and I told her she’d have to stay alive until then. I was going to go in to see her on the weekends, but she doesn’t want me to.

1/25/23 Chapter 2, Paragraph 1

Now I have nothing against women who are escorts but there is shame involved. When you are raised in a wealthy family and you go to the best schools, graduate with a masters in social work, you never really think you’ll ever become an escort. Oh sure, I knew about Xavier Hollander but knowing her name and that she was the Happy Hooker was about all I knew. I think if my original family found out, they would disown me. I know that any family member will try to get me to stop.  And it’s not like I wouldn’t like to stop but how can you start making over $100,000 a year? Especially when all the money from your family dried up and you are pretty much left on your own. All you would have to do is Google my phone number but obviously nobody has or if they have, they haven’t told me.

1/27/23 Sexting

Quite by mistake, I found out something about myself that I never knew. I actually excel at Sexting. I still won’t do video chats and I think most of them are scams anyway, but if anybody wants to take me up on my Sexting skills, I think you’ll find that I am fairly proficient . And I like it too. I think my rates for this will be $30 for 15 minutes. Just long enough.